She’s baaaaaack….

I have been opening this blog each and everyday since i last posted an entry.The urge to write something is always there but i seem to always let time flies without any.

Have you ever been thinking? I mean,always thinking? Like constant bubbles of thoughts pops out in your mind,and when it haven’t even popped off yet, another bubble came up? That is kinda what is happening in my mind.I found myself thinking all the time,not only about things that matters but things that doesnt as well.

Ok its not like i am going to talk about everything that i thought of,but some things has been bothering my mind these days:

• How do i see myself in the future?
• Am I doing something that I am meant to do?
• Is there any passion in what i am currently doing?
• Was this how i planned to end up,7 years back?

The funny thing is,i cant find any answer to most of the questions.But for q no 3,i can answer it without hesitation: No.

People may say that i am not grateful for what God gave me,that i have not learn to appreciate the bounty and His blessings.It is not like that,heck,not at all.Its just that i think i could do something else better,something that i really have the passion for.Something interesting and worth doing (well at least for me).And perhaps something that i know i am good at,and i can extend the goodness to people who receives the end results.

So,i have been thinking.I have decided that i may not stay this way until the end.At one point of time in my life later,i have to make sure the status quo is changed.

Of all the below,i am still figuring out which:

• Learn arts or graphic design.Sketch.Draw.Design.
• Write.Be a writer?Write a book?
• Be an editor or a graphic designer in some kind of magazine?
• Set up a creative business? (photography? creative stationery? crafts?)
• Be a rockstar.

I hope it won’t be too late when the time comes, eventually.

I was looking for a distraction and decided to google-thrash.So i typed “nak”.Behold the results:

When lah we are going to be body-confident.Sometimes people already look like like a stick, but they still claim that they are fat! D’uh!

I do not consider myself  “not-selfish” or “selfless”.Because personally i think selfishness is human nature. You can see it especially at the worst of times. At times where we have to find escape,and when we sense that we are in danger.

Tak percaya? Cuba test.

But, i always find myself somewhat “trapped” in a situation where i had to DO something, when in fact i actually do not really want to. It seems to me, that my “sacrifice”, made space for people who could not care less, who went away running at light speed through the door, when they made up their mind not to DO that particular thing.

Which,left me alone, and other few who is either in the same condition as mine, or really honestly do not mind doing the thing.

How can people just NOT CARE? How can people just IGNORE and be INDIFFERENT? Is it because of they know that there are people like me? People who are willing to just not be selfish at that time, just because the WORK HAS TO BE DONE.

Sometimes i wonder if there are no more people like me.Will the world be a better place, where we humans care about absolutely nothing, but ourselves?

Honestly,am i that naive and gullible?

Oh, i dream of a day that i can run for the door too.But yet,is it the right thing to do?

… u turn to the other side.

Perhaps, it’s the way of the future. Politikus metro.

-kuemri-

Happy

Parents are coming back home for good very soon.

One of the girls,Mira,is getting married next week.

Hubby has a manual lense from FIL’s old Pentax,but it snaps beautiful photos.

Learning to take nicer pics now.And learning to edit them to be even nicer.

Hubby passed his exam!

Content

We are closing the deal on the house this Sunday.

Hubby has agreed that we will have a cabinet for the kitchen.So glad that getting a less than RM10k budget cabinet is still possible these days.IMPIANA Sept told us that.

I bought myself a TEFAL food steamer with a great bargain (that was an impulse-purchase)

Lonely

Am waiting for hubby to come home.10 days together during last raya holidays was the longest time we spend together so far.Made me miss him even more.

…and its raining most of these nights.

Excited

Attending many weddings this October month.Cant wait to shoot pics and meet people that we have not met for some time.

Company Annual Dinner is coming soon in November.Theme: Back to School.Now wth? What should i wear??

Broke

Yes,its just the beginning of the month and yet i found out that i cannot simply spend anymore!

Mellow

Mr Boss is leaving the department.Getting a new boss now, he was a colleague who got promoted.So i reckon things will go well.Hopefully.

Sorry&Sad

Yet another earthquake occured again last night.Double the trouble.Triple the devastation.My prayers to the victims and their families.May they recover quickly.And may we learn our lesson from this episode,again.

Pertama kali,beraya bersama suami dan keluarga.

Pertama kali, beraya tanpa adik-adikku Alefee dan Aderi.Kami berpecah tahun ni. Sorang di Seremban,sorang di kampung.

Pertama kali, tak beraya di Kelantan.

Pertama kali, beraya sebagai seorang isteri.

Tapi..

Untuk kesekian kali, beraya tanpa ibubapa dan adik kecilku Akila di sisi.

Mereka kan pulang Oktober ini.

Tahun depan boleh raya bersama kembali.

Insya Allah

…when a bunch of girls meet up,dine,shop and engage in a cam-whoring session, while dragging their hubby/bf along?

Answer
This:

Left to right: a father in waiting,a joker bf,my sweet hubby,a hawt-new-addition-to-the-clan bf

Notice that each of them are holding at least one plastic bag (which of course is the result of each partners shopping spree)? Aww..that is sweet After getting tired of snapping our own pics,we turned to them.We were laughing our bottoms off to the sight.

We love our men  

I am hearting these colour palletes for our new home.What do you reckon? Which colour is for which part of the house,you think?

I have been in love with natural hues since forever.But i do love all colours.Yet when it comes to choosing, i always look to the practical factor.So mostly my preferred colours are staples (e.g earth tone,black,white,cream,denim) and easy to mix and match.

We just signed the S&P document last Saturday, but the house have not received its CFO yet.Hopefully it wont take too long. We cant wait to start with the touch ups and finally move in.

On another note, hubby is having yet another exam for his LAE this Wednesday.He is caught studying most of the time since last week.

So,here is a good luck kiss for hubby.

You can do it dear,i know it

Ever been in a time when the phrase above makes total sense? I did.Many times.But these were recent. And things like this always makes me muse in retrospect.

Story 1

Last few weeks i discovered that i have already met my husband’s 2nd cousin, back in year 2000. She was a senior in my boarding school.Retrospectively, i would have never ever thought that my future husband is just a 2nd-cousin away.And there we were, saying our salams when we brush shoulders,never thinking that in the future we will cross paths again.How did i came to knew about her? Her husband is working in the same company, whom i have liased with last year.Now i officially have a relative in the company.

Story 2

Yesterday a friend from boarding school passed me a wedding invitation card ,of another fellow ex-classmate.When i opened the card, the face of the bride struck me. I knew this person. After confirming the name,it so happened that she was my brother’s “kakak angkat” back when he was in MRSM.

How i knew that she was his pet sis? She happened to study in UTP too, and said hi to me when she knew that i, the real kakak is studying there too.

How the hell does she came to know my fellow ex-classmate? No idea.But for sure, now i know both the bride and groom.Better reason to make it to the wedding Insya Allah.

Story 3

I was browsing Facebook,when i came across this particular girl,which i really feel so familiar with. Apparently she was a daughter of my father’s colleague,back when they were posting in Switzerland.We used to hangout when we were in the country during our school holidays.Her connections was my classmates from UTP, but i was very positive that she did not study there.So,how come she has the same connections as mine?

Apparently again,she is now in a relationship with a guy who used to be an x-bf to a fellow classmate.No wonder.Facebook can really do wonders,even in the most unconventional way.At least now i found her and able to keep in touch again.

Conclusion

The world is so small.But yet when your future just pass you by or hit you between your eyes,you never noticed it.Ironic huh?